questions/concerns

1. what is your fascination with me?

leave me alone.

2. why are you so creepy? you wonder why i don't talk to you for months, it's because you creep me out with your super forwardness in asking me to have sex with you. you're gross. no.

3. why am i so attracted to a guy that's engaged/practically married?

4. are you flirting with me? is the reason you're coming here to see me? if yes & if so, stop and don't. you're wasting your time.

5. stop trying to be the one for me, you're not.

and 6 isn't so much a question or concern,

but a realization that i have been completely anti-social these past 2-3 weeks

and now all i want is human interaction

and i have pushed away one of my best friends

and someone who really needed me

so i feel pretty great about that.

other than that, life is pretty good,

things are looking up.

oh and i think i got asked on a date today

and now i feel really bad because now that i think about it

it sounded like i totally blew him off

and made up some lame excuse about not being able to go,

but i actually do have plans on that day

and it's too bad because he asked me to go to this really amazing thing,

a premier (or showing?) of a banksy film.

i wish i could go, not as a date though.