i'd like to

skip the boring parts, please.

so many exciting & nerve racking things coming up,

looking forward to them.

i miss my boy.

not really sure when i'm gonna see him again,

which is kind of annoying :/

the universe is so crazy,

i can't get over it.

my ex asked me to get back with him yesterday,

i said no,

and today, i was finally asked out by the one i've been wanting.

weird weird weird.

i can't wait for our date tomorrow night :]

having a boyfriend again feels strange,

we'll see how this all goes,

i've had a good feeling about it from the start.

i want so many things

i've gotten pretty good at this,

kinda proud of myself,

but i'd really just like to feel something again,

something real, something that feels right,

not something i have to talk myself into.

i'll be seeing you in 3 weeks,

i don't know how it'll be since i haven't seen you in almost a year,

all i know is that i need to hold it together

and look cute as fuck.

FUCK

add tonight to the list of things i don't want to remember.

i don't even know why i care but,

i wish you'd just say what you mean.

EDIT:

okay, you said it, you miss me.

ha.

anyway, i hope everything goes as planned tonight,

and i hopehopehope it's all good,

i kinda have a feeling :]