swim.

you really bother me.

i keep going over that conversation we had 2 months ago

and your bullshit reasons.

i wish i would have spoken up and called you out,

but your words were like a smack in the face.

oh how selfish i was to want you all to myself,

no, how selfish you were to not understand how i was feeling.

all of my "bad moods" pushed you away,

mmno, crying definitely isn't what i do when i'm in a bad mood,

and after four years of really knowing me,

i guess you didn't know me all that well.

i apologize for wanting to spend my life with you,

and i really appreciate you not talking to me,

or trying to keep contact with me

because it's made it so much easier to let you go.

but everyfuckingtime i see your name on facebook

i want to comment the nastiest, bitchiest most sarcastic comments,

but i wont.

thank you for showing me real love

and showing me real loss

i'm grateful to have gone through it

and as much as i want to hate you, i cant

and i dont think i ever will.